Hello world, it’s Max. Today I’m doing an update and a PSA. So, recently I was having really bad chest pain. I ended up having to call in to work and go to the er. It turns out, I injured myself from binding. There was a problem with my ribs being inflamed, because I was […]
Read More Bind Safely And Here’s Why
Hello world, it’s Max. Recently I had a psychiatrist appointment, and something unexpected happened. I got up the courage to ask about testosterone. And you know what they told me? That I had to ask my PCP. (Primary care physician) So, I made an appointment to go see my doctor. And now my doctor is […]
Read More So….Testosterone.
Hello world, it’s Max. Today I have compiled a list of things that make me feel Dysphoric. Now, this is NOT, in any way, a full list. This is just the list of the most uncommon ones. The way I walk– I was once told I walk like a woman, and ever since that day […]
Read More Random Things That Make Me Dysphoric (that probably don’t make other people Dysphoric)
Hello world, it’s Max. And today I have a few trans Youtubers that I think you guys should check out. Now these are just a few of the trans creators that I watch, so if you guys want more, let me know! Before getting into the list I wanted to say that I have a […]
Read More Some Under Appreciated Trans Youtubers
Hello world, it’s Max. Here with another poem. You were kind. You were Funny, Smart And Caring. What happened? Now you spit Words of hate. Your words wrap around My broken heart And seep into Every wound, Like lemon juice to my paper cut. I use your words To justify self harm But deep down […]
Read More Were; What You Stole- A Poem
Remington’s head was buried in his hands, tears and smeared makeup mixing with his anxious sweat. He hated this. He couldn’t do a thing. It was far too quiet, yet somehow his mind and body felt as if he were in the loudest place on earth. He was subconsciously tapping his leg as he thought […]
Read More Critical Condition – A Max Emerson Short Story
Hi guys. So, it’s been over a year since I last posted. A lot has happened. I left here initially because of my trip to the mental hospital. Since then I’ve been hospitalized 5 times. January 2018: I called the National Suicide Hotline. Tom, from North somewhere, answered. I told him how I was feeling […]
Read More Where I’ve Been….
Hello world, it’s Max. FutureMe.org is a site that let’s you write letters to yourself from the past. You can send letters to your future self a year from the present or even five, which I find super interesting and fun. I have written many of these letters, most of which I forgot about. Until […]
Read More Getting A Letter From Closeted Me…
Hello world, it’s Max. Now I’ve been writing most my life, which means there are plenty of abandoned projects that I thought would make great novels. I wrote poems that I forgot, and even parts of short stories for my friends. I wrote a lot about the idea of the four elements, mainly because my […]
Read More What I Wrote About At Age 10….
Hello world, it’s Max. I’m here with yet another poem for you guys, There was a point where skin was just skin, And that our bodies were just vessels we controlled, Each to our own. There was a point where grades were just numbers, And we never dreamt of knowing how many calories were […]
Read More There Was A Point Where Skin Was Just Skin- Poem